Thursday, July 30, 2009
note:
TEMPORARILY MOVING TO TUMBLR.
11:19:00 AM
XXIII
This song is strangely hypnotising, weirdly numbing and surprisingly mollifying. Diamond,heart,feather or 23 on the wrist?
9:46:00 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
you've catch on to my weakness
Well I just happen to be on fb awhile back and saw
xxx is singlewhich is, I would say, not meant to be?
I mean I thought they would have last longer. I thought wrong.
And there gos, one less couple on earth.
While on the other hand, someone else is proclaiming
'Omg I fucking love him forever, I m gonna marry him, right!"
But Next thing you know,FB:
"XXX is single"Now what happen to
"forever"?
If you're wonderinig why, it's just a random thought, contrasting two situations that happened today.
Somehow both seem rather vivid.
Anyhow, llabten training on friday was kinda good after not training for almost a week! I think the flu has hindered my stamina, cause I constantly felt tired, which never use to be a problem.
Note to self: improve stamina by 1Aug!?!!
2:39:00 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009
take only what you need
Butter yesterday was awesome I must say.
Worth the wait ;)
Wasn't the usual RnB but the songs Inquisitive had on was just as good.
Oh and need I say, I only remembered 50% of the night.
The other 50% was washed away when I down too much alcohol.
But definately remember falling all over the place and people going like "MEEEEL!",
trying to put me back on my two feet. Oh and somewhere in between all
that dancing, I ended up beside a white BMW? and also stuck my head into a window of a Wish for some air con.
Kids(MGMT) has been playing like a broken recorder in my head all day.
Just that one instrumental part that sounds like.,.. I don't know, some weird high pitched instrument. Electric keyboard maybe?
Gonna go down to school tomorrow. Not Temasek, but SAC.
We're gonna have a fest. Possibly, say Hi to my sis and Mrs Yong while we're at it.
I still have not gotten my SK Quah award back. :/
Don't think i'll get it tomorrow or anytime soon thats for sure.
Meantime school's been... okay. Mundane?
At least I haven't pilled my work.
Well, only till this week.
If I don't complete my drawing today,
I'll have a really good time on tuesday rushing to complete my drawing.
Well, thats about it.
1:47:00 AM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Mannn I swear. it's like I m not meant to own a Mac.
My pervious macbok got stolen and now
my current temporary mac powerbook charger, mysteriously got bended.
Therefore i m unable to plug it into the mac, which then means the powerbook can't run.
The worst part is, to get a new one, it would cost $152.90
and I got a feeling im gonna have to fork out that amount myself.
On top of that, I still owe my mom $130? I think for the previous battery that got stolen along with the macbook.
Okay, that aside.
The Energizer National League for netball is finally over for our division
and we managed to top the table! :)
Kinda miss playing with that team. A hard working bunch they are.
But when one door closes, another opens right?
So at the last touch training, we were told that polite is only about EIGHT trainings away.
That's CRAZY fast.
8, it's like you can count it on your two hands?!
I just really hope I make it in.
But I have to work extra hard because of my injury which makes it hard to sprint.
Ironic right? owells..
Schools still out for me at the moment, unlike the rest who were pulling their hair out trying to complete their projects by monday. Thank goodness Design school don't give students projects during their breaks. I most probably would neglect it till the last 2 days?
I m a procrastinator, period.
Just like how I m currently procrastinating because I
kinda dont want to speak to my boss - urgh
and also procrastinating because I m lazy to go to the doctor to get my check up done.
But to come to think of it, I might just go right now
because the damn neighbour has some nasty drilling
going on and I can't hear the tele,
let alone, hear myself think!
Even My poor cat is hiding under my bed.
It's the kinda noise that makes you want to bang on the wall and go "shut up!"
What an ear sore...
10:11:00 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Initially, I just wanted to ignore this.
But strangely, that thought just seem to keep replaying itself.
As short as a second but so powerful
it gives this strange tingly feeling in your stomach
which sends shivers down your spine.
You don't want it to go away, but then again it has to.
Which makes you wanna say "I don't know..."
But in actual fact, you know for sure why.
It's not who you expected, then again it's no surprise.
Complex as it might sound, it's really not...
10:22:00 PM
Saturday, June 06, 2009
how many times must i break till I shatter
Why does happiness always seem to come hand in hand with misery?
Just when you thought things were getting better...
BAMB!!
It crumbles down.
Or rather, I crumble down.
Should have listened when they said ignorance is bliss.
I'm tired.
I don't want to go through this scene again.
The pervious cast was bad enough.
12:37:00 AM
Monday, June 01, 2009
The time you enjoy wasting, is not wasted time.
This space is quite dead.
Watch me in my attempt to revive it.
My second block is ending soon.
Not that I m anticipating the next.
The first week was rather easy, just lectures and copying notes.
Lighting, design principles, open/closed back displays, realistic/abstract... and what have you.
Then without warning!
came the execution stage -week 2 .
Totally rushed through the first project
and I MEAN rush!
Like I completed the project in the last 3 hrs before submission.
Actually, I wouldn't even say it's "complete".
Then came the weekend where I was suppose to complete part 2 of the project
but I was tied down with work and netball and...
well, other stuff that might seem important to me.
I manage to cramp in some time Sunday morining to finish 1 concept
but sacrificed going to Church.
God forgive me.
Rushed all the way from 8 this morning till 2.50
and managed to finish everything!
Only short of the presentation part.
I swear I suck at presenting when I m nervous.
Anyhows that's over and done with.
Right now, i've got 2 designs to do and hopefully finish by 1?
Hope the lecturer likes it.
From what I observe this pass month:
If you want to score an A,
don't hand up something YOU think is nice
don't hand up something YOUR FRIEND think is nice
nor do you hand up something that is all the rage right now.
Cause it might merely get you a C+ or B.
If you wanna get an A, hand up something THE LECTURER thinks is nice
even though you think it's really horrible.
Just saying...
end note:
Same script different cast?
9:55:00 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
It scares me.
11:48:00 AM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
fairytales end when they do for a reason.
Oh my gosh. Gossip girl might just have the best ending for the season EVER.
The writers are brilliant!
It's like they keep you in suspence
but nevertheless they give you some closure.
Okay, I know it's just a show...
but I m secretly kinda happy that Chuck and Blair are together!
(Jac, I know... you oppose right haha)
Maybe it's because it's the only time I would see anything like that happen.
Because endings like that only happen on television...
and unless you can prove me wrong, i'll stand firm with my cynical point of view.
Btw why was Serena the only one without
the trencher cap and the tassle pinned to her hair instead?!
hmmm..
Okay, thats about it for gossip girl.
Next season is in August, or so I heard from my lecturer.
Yes, he watches gossip girl. haha
But he's kinda against the whole bitchy theme of the show.
Well this new lecturer might be strict about our attire (no slippers, no shorts or no attendance)
and about being on time (only 5 mins grace or.. no attendance)
but he's really funny.
My goodness... you should hear the way he says
'oh my gaaawd' and then grumble about the heat. Hillarious.
Oh not forgeting the...
well I don't know where to classify this under - lamest/funniest/weirdest
thing happen today in class.
B came in 13 minutes late for class. 13 mins late = absent
H: B...why are you absent?
B: I have a very got excuse for being late.
H: and whats that?
B: I don't wanna say, it's very embarrassing..
H:Okay then come up here and tell me
B:Don't want! It's embarrassing!
H:But half the class knows already?!
B walks up to H, covers her mouth and giggles
then very reluctently said:
I was on my way to school then I realise I forgot to wear my bra.
then came the roar of laughter from the class.
Hearing that, was pretty much a once in a lifetime thing. haha
But alas, today is the start of our project preparation.
I'll start in the morning, when I get up.
Hopefully it will STILL be morning.
Lack of sleep is really killing me.
Especailly if it's on Monday because Tuesday is double trng day.
I was so tired I actually walked into a 14 thinking it was a 31?!
I really scare myself sometimes.
Thank goodness 14 is also a bus that would lead me home
and that I didn't step into a 33 or 196.
Got my boots today with Jac at Queensway :D
She got new school shoes.
Not sure how many pairs she already has...
Definitely more than 3! haha
Can't wait to boot up tomorrow!
Oh and B was still marked absent. poor thing haha
12:25:00 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
drink! -to all that we have lost, mistakes we have made;
Long gone are those days that I miss you
A terribly mentally draining experience.
And well, I m glad it has finally stopped.
Took me long enough...
But you know how they say,
"when one door closes, another door opens"
In my case, I basically already know whats behind the door that is so eager to be opened.
What I don't know is if I can handle it.
I guess I already got my warnings to drop one responsibillity
but being indecisive and stubborn as I usually am, I m keeping them all.
Just for now.
Change will be prominent this month, thats for sure.
The begining of it is a new subject in school.
But like I said, that's just the begining.
Wish me luck?
;love remains the same.
10:24:00 AM
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Today started off as a pretty good day.
Watched 3 straight episodes of Grey's then met Jac, Cheryl and Nat for the home club flea.
This is rather blunt, but...the stuff sucked. (except for one or two stores.)
On top of that, the crowd was demode.
The flea two weeks ago was so much better!
Anyhow, it was all fun till.. well, my mood was spoilt.
I think i've got bipolar disorder.
Okay, maybe not. But it feels like it,
and it's a rather horrible feeling.
Anyhows... Afiqs birthday tonight.
Almost like a party weekend?
late! ciao.
8:33:00 PM
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
you're faking a smile with the coffee to go.
Haven't been school for 2 days.
I m wouldn't say i'm enjoying my extended weekend,
but it's a breather I need from too much painting.
I also need a breather from something else... and soon!
Because I m running out of breath, sighing all the time.
Nothing lies ahead, but much lies behind.
Im aware of the pass, but to the future I'm blind.
All I know is "what goes around, comes around".
Just a matter of time before the future happens.
Whether it's good or bad?
Well, you already decided that yourself.
12:05:00 AM
Monday, May 04, 2009
what if it makes you sad?
My literature teacher once told the class, whatever I m feeling now,
is the worst feeling any human being can feel and it's the time where they are most vulnerable.
Which does not help because they are just more susceptible to getting hurt, again.
It's not heartbreak. It's deeper than that.
It's felt by more people than you think.
They just don't say it. Won't admit it.
But if you look hard enough, you can see it in their actions.
Actions which might seem just for the fun of it,
but, subtly, scream their despair.
I know this because I'm seeing it in someone else.
Someone who's most probably still trying to find the word to fit the feeling.
Until that is accomplish, I'll observe the same desperation.
Which will only remind me of my own.
Well, at least it makes me more cautious of my own actions.
M.
9:27:00 AM
what if it takes your breath & you can hardly breathe?
Life.
It can only get better right?
why isn't it...?
Okay, maybe it'll start getting better today.
Then again, I m skipping school today.
So, thats already starting on the wrong foot.
Somehow I miss times with Nat, Ning and Faith.
I've missed SO many parties. -Why?
Well, only I will know.
Unless you can infer well enough to figure out.
Instead of partying, been doing school work with Nash in town.
Drawing and painting is hellava-lot of work.
But i'll skip all the days for this week and forward to Sunday.
Went for mass in the morning then made my way down to AC.
Had lunch with Moey, Rachel Wong and Tats at subway. :)
I don't know how long we sat there and chat for, but it felt pretty long!
After that we spilt and I took a train down with Amanda to town.
Moey continued the train ride home.
Met Nash and we did the usual.
I have been working on the same piece of work for 4 days! (as Nash recalled)
Thank goodness I m at the painting part now.
Don't think I can go through one more day thinking of abstraction of flowers, leafs and what not.
Tat came down later on around 5-ish plus too because she was bored at home.
Had dinner around 6-ish and then it was HOME.
Life.
Seems rather dull now-a-days.
What happened to excitement?
Come out, come out,
where ever you are, I miss you.
Dying in anticipation for Friday to come.
(Gotta make sure I save up first)
Hmmm...and something is missing.
How do you replace something thats missing?
1:19:00 AM
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
the comedy is that it's serious
The sun seemed to be on some rampage,
till today. Sweet rain. A little too strong on the winds though.
Anyhow just for self reference in the future
this was the order of events the pass few days.
Friday- Watched AC's match against TJC, dinner with Moey, Marcus, Tat and Steph, training
Saturday- School in the morning, Flea market at homeclub with Jac and Clare!
Then dinner with Nash at Holland V
Sunday- Church, lunch, LOST MY RAYBANS at tampines 1 topshop! :(
(but I didn't know),
Met Nash who studied while I completed my drawing.
(still oblivious my raybans were gone)
Monday- Stayed up till 4 to paint my drawing, strolled into class 15 mins late with big eye bags, had to do some shit color wheel for 2D class, painted one section wrongly -whatever.
watched some cool video on beauty in design history and culture, learned that 1:1.168 is the golden ratio for good looking people's faces and that people with symmetrical faces are naturally better runners. - didn't know that did you!
Walked home, Realised my raybans were missing(!!!),
panic and ran sacked the house to find it, remembered I left it at topshop,
made a trip down to Tampines 1, FOUND RAYBANS<3>
decided that I should cut down on the chicken cutlet and chicken chops I eat in school, went to orchard to take pictures for project.
Tuesday-
Stayed up till 1, gave up trying to finish 2D drawing homework because it was too time consuming to even start paining, went to class 15 minutes late again, told teacher I didn't paint my work, but still got compliments for my unpainted abstractions (Thank God).
Ate whole wheat pasta I cooked myself for lunch. -no chicken chop/cutlet :)
Finally it rained heavily, ran across the bridge, felt like I went through a hurricane, reached the end of the bridge almost drenched. Did work in the library, slept in the library, went for Design history and culture and watched another video then had an early dinner with Joan and Ning.
Went home, got changed, went for touch football clinic, considered joining, went for training, was enlightened at the end of training - I feel so inspired even till now, went home and was constantly reminded by my mom that I have work tomorrow.
Well that pretty much sums it up.
Oh and seriously, I actually feel inspired right now.
Such a shame that even after so many months of observing, trying to figure out why,
I still had to get someone to point it out to me before I realise, WHY.
What's worst is that this person most probably only 'observed' ONCE and got it. Damn..
But bottom line is now I know!
Just need to try it out.
And yes, gonna give school a miss tomorrow to work.
Need a break anyways.
and you know what else I need a break from?
Mosquitoes. Urgh they keep leaving weird marks on my leg.
12:19:00 AM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Skoooooolilo.
You would think Apparel merchandising and Design school students simply sew, sketch outfits and study different type of cloths everyday.
But thats all but a mere cliched view.
I've not touch any cloth, did any outfit sketching nor have I touched a sewing machine.
Nevertheless, I get this sense of relief knowing that design school is not just all drawing and sewing.
I would shamelessly say I like design history and culture. (the no drawing part)
Sounds boring?
I thought so too. But it's FAR from that.
It's like Literature but you're not analyzing poems or prose.
You analyze people, advertisements, cultures...
Anyhow, we were told to look at advertisements
('as designers and not secondary school kids').
Observe how advertisements are done and how they influence etc...
So as I was doing so, I stumbled upon this new ad!
Online retailer, Tobi, is currently reusing all the boxes it receives daily as packaging for their own customers!
"A brand new box may look prettier, but Tobi believes it's what's inside that counts. " - I like that line.
The creativity that goes into saving our planet these days. Two thumbs up.
So that's the advertisement part.
Here's the 'people' part:
1. Observe people who blast their music and block out the world when they're in the Mrt or bus. Why do they do it?
2. Why do people usually like people who are taller, slimmer, fairer, smarter, faster...or in a nutshell, people who acquire better qualities?
Hmm.. 1 was easy to answer because I m guilty as charged.
But as for 2, well... I don't usually like people just because they are taller, slimmer, fairer, smarter or faster, as some might already know.
When I asked myself why, I couldn't really find an answer.
So 2 is a little bit of a problem.
Okay, I feel like as if I m doing my homework here?!
Speaking about homework, I really need to get started on that drawing which is due in 2 days. I swear, drawing is a chore!
I would rather write you many many literature essays than draw.
You know how it's like when you have to draw and erase , draw and erase,
DRAW AND ERASE, for like 3 HOURS ++
Goodness... irritates the hell out of me.
Then you would ask what am I doing in design then?
Hah, I don't know either. Go figure.
5:11:00 PM
